sincerely meĪfter all that we went through, all tears and all laughters that you shared, i realized that was makes my journey truly precious, for me that was the feelings that i never felt before in my entire life it is truly astounding how you brought me such joy and sparked so many smiles out of me the way that nobody has ever did before. Or perhaps, this feeling of emptiness, this feeling of missing someone dear to me will gradually fade as time goes by. i never really write long paragraphs, but I guess this Is my last love letter for you, i guess,Perhaps this could ease my mind a little. Now i understand what "glimpse of us" mean. People around me keep telling me to forget and move on, but they never got to see you the way I did.And sometimes I still see 'us' in 'you'. God knows how much I miss the old memories, how much I dreamt of reliving those moments, and how much I cried every night, putting myself to sleep knowing that I'll never get to experience those: moments with you again. After all that we went Sometimes I do wish that we can start things over and probably fix each other's mistake while we're at it. i never regret of meeting you and i never hate you even a little bit but im disappointed in you. you are not my first but you're probably the best i have ever had. actually, it can be fixed but you choose to leave. i watched you give up on me, watched you slowly lost interest in me and i watched you walk slowly lost interest in me and i watched you walk out of my life. you're the one i thought would always be with me but it's not. i managed to not bother you but i failed to not miss you. you are not as perfect as i described in my stories but there's no way i can easily unlove you. the highest point of loving you is where when i can accept the fact that you and i cant be together anymore. It almost 2023, the fact that i've to go on another years without you, I for once have never hated you for the way you treated me.After all these years that we went through, all tears and laughters that you shared, I realized that what makes my journey truly precious for me was the feelings that I never felt before in my entire life.It is truly astounding how you brought me such joy and sparked so many smiles out of me the way that nobody has ever did before.Yeah i know you might go apart on your own path, but for some reason i'm still waiting for you to comeback and the biggest part of me really wants us to reunite someday. i have my own script where every moment with her is written on every page of it- my wify. “hindi– ‘di naman ako tatanggi” she just laughed and took my hand as we entered together. “what? let’s go– just pls do it right this time, naka ilang take na us kasi bigla kang sumasapaw” pangit ng script, “bobo kasi ng bida” “selos, why? do you want to get married again?” alok ng asawa kong ubod ng ganda. because you’re the one who got lost” she turned her back as she was about to go back inside. but she quickly removed my grip from her hand, “i never lost my way, kim. “puta! sge magtanan na kayo pre” hiyaw ni ryu. “masyado ka ng naliligaw ng landas papunta sa ‘kin, oras na para agawin ka” i gently pulled her out as he was about to stop me but aeri blocked him. a billion’s words aren’t enough to describe how beautiful you are but i have one for you, “i love you even if loving you is to curse myself” i gently held her hand. “i do– taking this risk rather than losing you forever, yu” she looked at me, asking. “definitely” all the wedding guests looked at me, confusedly. have i really done everything? “and ready to sacrifice– hold each other’s hand?” i stood up as i put down the violin, “bobo ba’t ka huminto” not yet– just once, but taking a risk is losing myslf. “do you accept each other’s self in hardships and comforts?” priest said as he held yu’s hand and put the ring on her finger, “i do”. “kami na ulit” oh, am i really hard to see? for 20 years i did nothing but watch the progress of her story that even one page, walang ako ang naro’n. “saya ka?” i asked, making her smile even wider. kababata? bfriend? damn, it really hurts more if you two just stay where you started. “i cook-” “just leave me alone, kim” we’re always formal even though we grew up together, “call me if you need anything”. since they broke up yesterday, she hasn’t left her room. and it’s killing me– why you still can’t see me even though i'm right in front of you, yu. Pov: fake scene i still wonder why i still chose to hold her hand– like p’wedeng ba maging ako? i gently pulled her for a hug, “just cry– and hold me just this once” she started to cry, louder than earlier.
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